i'm making progress in so many areas. i'm challenging the negative self-talk, i'm trying to overcome my emotional eating, and i am trying to figure out my real passion and dream.
there are few things more frustrating than losing control and feeling powerless to stop the action while in the middle of it. like today. yesterday was perfect, and today was as well until about 8pm. then i ate what seems like a pound of granola - definitely not on-plan... i was just feeling so hungry - i don't know why i didn't just have my next meal -
i think i should try to figure out what was going on in my head in order to avoid a repeat.
some things i had been thinking about were the video clip of joanna gaines about how she felt god spoke to her about her purpose and her dreams. i just wish i knew how to discover my own purpose - and/or how to realize my dreams. then when i watched an episode, it was her talking about this dream of the silos. the place for her business to grow. i long for that. i long for a creative outlet that enables me to explore my talents and my passion.
i want to create beautiful things and spaces. i want to learn to run a successful business. i want to inspire myself and my girls to dream big and to trust themselves and their faith.
i want to feel like the lord is speaking clearly to me and letting me know of my strength and my abilities.
i want to run.
i want to feel free of this weight and this constant thinking about my size.
i can imagine myself on our trip this fall wearing cute skinnies or a fun skirt and being unencumbered by feelings of self-consciousness.
